The Results...

Right... we have a plan of sorts...

Tomorrow morning I go back up to St George's hospital, my doctor, Mr Stapleton, thinks the best thing to do is to cut out as much of it as they can and then follow this up with radiotherapy/chemo as necessary. So that is exactly what we are going to do. I'm glad I don't have to wait around, they want me in and out for Christmas and that works well for me, gives me something to focus on.

Surgery frightens me but I have no choice, and I'll be asleep anyway, won't know what's going on.

I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful family, I really couldn't get through this without them, my mum, my sisters, my husband, the support has been incredible and it is because of them that I know I can beat this.

Man I'm scared, really scared but oddly totally chilled too, like my body doesn't quite belong to me. They've upped my steroids in preparation for the operation so I'm guessing that's got something to do with it. Nil by mouth as of 6 o'clock tomorrow morning, which will be painful on the increased steroids but I've just got to get through it, I've got no choice.

Please pray for me and my family, keep us in your thoughts. Your positive words give me strength.

This Too Shall Pass

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be-

If I can remain calm and quiet
With all the world crashing about me,
Secure in the knowledge God loves me
When everyone else seems to doubt me-

If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade with the morning
And that this will pass away, too-

Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains
I can suffer whatever is happening
For I know God will break all of the chains

That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear-
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.

...Helen Steiner Rice